Akuta

@KiseAkuta on discord
(current day ↓ of my journal)

    (updated: 2026/05/14 (3528))

    how im feeling?
    (TW: a bit dark)
    (hugs appreciated. just good to be heard)
    i guess scared. its not as bad as it was.. ive found some peace. im given more kindness than i deserve. i feel lucky to be kept around. im still scared a little.. but i will be good.    ive focused a lot on my work, and its helped me to feel useful, somewhat. learned to lean on a few friends in this anxious time, opening up some, after hiding everything inside for years. its so hard to adjust..my health has been very bad.. worse than usual. im anxious most of the time, and i cant eat much, anymore. im getting very thin, and weak. worse than usual. its getting hard to move. my heart pounds fast. i feel so alone, and scared.

    Akutay
    Akutay is the universe where most of my stories take place. its a large collection of realms, each with their own people, places, and stories!

    it started as an rpg i made for my friends back in early 2020, and has since become the center for a majority of my works~!
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    it consists mainly, of four realms; fendite, polarice, atyri, and lazure.    each realm embodies an element, those being fire, ice, storm, and water, respectively.

    bonjour! i am akuta, of the kise endeavor~! ow< ♥

    founder of the Artist Guild, a small
    and supportive discord community for artists
    to support one another <3
    (they are my pride and joy ♥)

    im primarily an artist and game developer. it is my purpose to help those who struggle, and leave no one behind. i wish to change the world someday, and help everyone in need.
    am not so strong anymore, but ill try my best
    i hope youll be proud of me

    any support is greatly appreciated <3

    When im well enough for it, i upload a drawing saturdays at 1700 utc! to all of my socials. (health hiatus since 2025/12/04)
    although, i try to do all kinds of other things too; i write music, i program games, i worldbuild, and try to bring hope and comfort wherever i go ♥    i hope someday to guide, to use my influence to set up systems to protect and support the isolated and afraid, for when i am no longer able to myself. i have no greater wishif youre interested in anything i do, please feel free to ask moi about it~! im always happy to chirp about my stories, or life. (i love hugs and attention, too)

    the section where i chirp about myself way too much, feel free to ignore
    (i talk A LOT in this section, and its probably not relevant unless youre a friend of mine who wants to know how to talk to me, or someone who wants to be)

    well, hi hi! im a 21+ artist mademoiselle, tall but small, if that makes sense. i love the rain a LOT, it makes me happy and giggly ^^. im a huge art nerd, i love to express myself and feel pretty.    ive drawn at least a sketch/doodle every day for the past 900+ days (although im like 15 days behind, after losing someone very close to me. im genuinely forever thankful for the time i got to know them). if youre an art nerd, we might get along well! i love sharing art, telling my stories, talking about my passions. (i have tons to share)
    i like expressive people, people with passion, i love artists, but especially, kind souls.    i think im really comforting and nice to be around, if you get past the layers of awkward introvert, but im quite emotional, and kind of mentally ill from those years in isolation. mostly constant self doubt and fear, especially lately. often i avoid speaking, out of anxiety and fear.


    i want to help and comfort, though honestly to some extent, i kind of live off of appreciation, attention, and encouragement. makes me feel like im doing a good job, i like to know how to make you happy.

    my name is akuta, while kise is a title from akutay, which means "mother/protector", roughly translated. i dont mind being called by my title, its kind of cute, but i prefer the name versions ow<. like "key-sa", or "key-say", or "kai-za". or kisa, over text.
    kisa or akuta are good.

    my oc/sona is an atramental! a very light race of creatures with fluffy black fur, and silvery horned masks. they are mood shapeshifters, and come in all kinds of shapes and sizes! atramentals are a subspecies of the species "akulyte". honestly i could talk about this for hours, but not here. way too much akuta lore.    i love to be asked questions, about my thoughts, my feelings, my life!.. im very open book, theres very little i wont talk about, and i appreciate the attention a lot. ive got a loooott going on, and i guess listening to me helps me feel safe to rely on you
    (im sorry q~q, this whole section is kinda stupid and unprofessional, but thank you if you read this far ♥)(i guess what else to write.. speak up for ukraine! slava i mir ukraini! 🇺🇦🕊️. trans rights! 🏳️‍⚧️. peace for palestine 🇵🇸, tax the rich, protect the poor. love yourself NOW ♥, youre beautiful. love and kindness wins, dont let the jerks get you down 🫂)

    if you are financially stable, and would like to contribute, i do have a Patreon, although the only benefit is being mentioned below with a message of your choosing, and my gratitude <3i am a dependant, so any financial aid would be greatly appreciated, but please only give if youre well off and really want to. dont feel bad if you cant 🫂as for non-monetary aid, sharing my work is also greatly appreciated! im a tiny artist, and nice words and comments make me feel what i do is worthwhile. it means a lot to mebut, just checking out my art and listening to my stories means the world to me
    thank you, hon <3

    Patrons
    20XX-X - none - "message"
    20XX-X - none - "message"    (thank you to my friends, who make me want to continue despite the pain. i wouldnt be here without you 🫂)

    status, for friends (updated 3514)

    here are some lovely artists whom i cherish! please show them some love <3

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    the Artist Guild ♥ is a small discord community i made for kind artists to support one another, and make friends ♥    its a small SFW server that welcomes and supports kind artists from around the world~! and im so proud to see the kind community that has blossomed from it ♥i set it up in 2023/12/7, and it has become my pride and joy as a kise
    (if youre a nice artist looking for community, feel free to ask me on discord to join!)
    (although im kind of scared of strangers..)
    love one another. hug those you love ♥

    KayQuestKayQuest is a game im working on; it takes place in the icy glades of polarice, where a hateful tyrant has overthrown the queen. kay wants to stay out of this mess, but the tyrant has other plans...(i intend for it to be available on steam for windows/mac/linux. id like it to be fully free for everyone, like all my work)(on hiatus, with my mental health q~q)

    Tunnelstunnels was a game i was working on in 2019; it takes place in the caves of fendite, where a deadly conflict wages between its residents. a mayoral akulyte finds themselves there after slipping through a thirian portal, and everyone calls them the 'chosen one'..(the game got put on hiatus after the code got too spaghetti, i dont think ill finish it)

    you know the rules, and so do i